I woke up this morning, super exhausted, realizing that my brain was already on turbo before my feet hit the ground. Then I had the usual conversation with myself, not wanting to call out the Ego in a persecutory way, but to label my thoughts as egoic at that moment. The internal pressure to not forget anything as my mind was going through all the things that I could do today.
At recognition, I simply said, none of that is important right this second, and the resistance increased. My love, can we not throw a tantrum this morning, all I’m saying is that I’d like to use this moment to consciously breathe and ground some of this energy that is already at play.
Part of my morning prayers and affirmations is that I gently and gracefully shift with the energies made available for me this day, and I hadn’t even recited this yet! My dear mind, you will not be left out of any important decisions, you may rest, there is no emergency.
It’s fascinating that we can experience ourselves as oneness with all AND as individuated expressions. And then within that individuated expression, more separateness occurs when we identify the parts of us that make up that whole.
Our physical body, our mental body, our emotional body, and our etheric body. Honoring how each of these parts has a dominant playground in different dimensional aspects. The 3D physical, the 4D mental and emotional, and the omnipresent etheric that exists everywhere and ‘nowhere’.
For those of us who claim anxiety, breathwork is invaluable in refocusing our attention to the now moment. Even though I was not in full blown lockdown anxiety, my thoughts were bubbling in a way, screaming for attention and asking me to stray into worlds that are none of my business.
I’ve become a master at self-affirming, just this, right here, right now… and even with this mastery, there are automatic processes, things that inhabit the physical cells, that are ready and waiting to derail in the name of their own survival and safety. Complex but simple.
Consciousness is what allows us to work with these autopilot reactions, to not push them down in disallowance, creating even greater resistance. Look it in the eye, ask, what is your purpose, what am I wanting to express right now? Is this helpful or is this conditioning that I can shower with love and compassion?
Grateful for the reactions that kept me safe when I absolutely needed them, but now they need me. They need me for assurance that all is well, and that may take more time than I think it should. Just as if I were speaking to my inner child (because a lot of these reactions are rooted there), giving assurance with gentle love.
You’re okay, and thank you for all the ways you have served me when I needed it most.
Today’s declaration is that I will not be making any plans whatsoever for the next few days.
Rolling with the flow, doubling down on meditation with this signal that something is trying to come through that has alerted my psyche as new and unfamiliar. That means it’s something good and potent, new energies to integrate and interact with, yes please.
I invite you to come back to your now moment every time it crosses your mind that you’re preoccupied with your past or your future.
Start with one conscious breath, full belly inhale, hold at the top, and exhale out through the mouth. Explore what your body is asking for at the completion of that conscious breath, what are you inspired to do now?
You’re okay, I’m okay, we’re okay.
I’d love to hear any reflections that came up for you after reading this.
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With Infinite Love,