I’m not trying to be ungrateful but today has been a hard one.
I don’t know why I woke up on the wrong side of the bed, there was nothing specific that happened, nothing I can place the blame on. I just feel bad today.
My first thought is to make a gratitude list, maybe I’m overlooking all of my current blessings. But that’s not it. I don’t feel like I’m missing anything, something just isn’t right.
Am I bypassing today by making a gratitude list? I don’t feel ungrateful, and I also don’t believe that I’m being punished in any way because I’ve ‘forgotten’ how blessed I am.
I don’t want to come off as ungrateful but today has been a hard one.
I’m experiencing abundance like never before, I know your grace is in place, in motion, always. I’m watching the words that like to turn into spells, I am experienced in this power. Yet nothing sour is spouted.
I’m really quiet, because I don’t like this feeling, especially when I can’t put my finger on it to change it.
Aha, there it is… to change it. Does it need to be changed?
I’m not trying to be ungrateful but today I don’t want to be where I am.
I’m watching the clock, preoccupied with things to be done over the next 24 hours, planning what 8 hours from now is going to look like.
I’m trying to go anywhere but here.
GUS: Oh child, but can you not yet see why this is presented before you today? You are needed here and in the now more than ever. What you are holding is not meant to be escaped, and it might not be all joyful as you wish. But dear one, how miraculous that you even see this in yourself. I will be grateful for you… I AM grateful for you.
I’m not trying to be ungrateful today, and I will cease this judgment of self at once. I am grateful that you are grateful, and that is enough.
I stand in this now moment, in grace, of grace, with grace, and all is well.
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